Thursday, November 17, 2005

Pindah Menara

Minggu depan aku pindah menara.. best ke ek? hmm...

Sekarang nie sekerap boleh aku tgk gambar baby2 amni, nanti dah kat menara..tak nak boleh nak bukak besar2 dah...seme org nampak... aku plak pantang tgk gambar baby mesti mengalir air mata... Ya Allah, baru la sekarang aku rase betapa kasihnya ibu pada anak.. mencurah-curah kasih sayang dlm hati aku ni utk baby amni... Patutla selalu kita dgr ramai ibu yang sanggup mati demi menyelamatkan anak.. and ye, kalau masa nak bersalin hari tu doktor tanye nak selamatkan ibu atau anak... aku takkan terfikir 2 kali... pastinya selamat anak2ku!

Tapi Allah itu ilmuNya jauh lagi luas dr akal manusia yang cetek ini... Dia maha Mengetahui, Dia maha berkuasa, Dia maha menentukan segala sesuatu, Dia Tuhan manusia!

Selalu suheimy igtkan aku..setiap segala ada hikmahnye...insyaAllah... Mudah2an hati ibu ini cepat sembuh dgn kehadiran cahaya mata baru. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah bg kami dan kurniakanlah kami anak yang soleh & solehah. Ameen.

Monday, October 31, 2005

Hari Raya.. Masa utk bergembira?

Assalamualaikum wbt.. Raya datang lagi.. Awal tahun dulu aku look forward sgt utk beraya thn ni.. Tak sabar rasa nak raya, balik kg suami dgn 2 org cahaya mata kami.. :)

Tapi ye lah..kita hanya mampu merancang...aku tak sangka raya kali nie begitu tak bermakna pada aku... terasa kosong... ishk...mesti org pun dah bosan baca blog aku nie...asyik2 pasal sedih hati sbb babies. Tapi realitinya macam tu... aku pun tak tau sampai bile aku akan terus2 bersedih dgn pemergian amni-amni ku yang tersayang.. maybe kalau bila kami dpt adik2 amni..insyaAllah terubat sikit hati kami... TAPI sampai sekarang, Allah masih nak uji kami kot..(atau kifarah atas dosa-dosa kami yang lalu) aku tak pregnant lagi... tapi ye la..kalu ikut lojik akal pun, baru 6 bulan aku bersalin, baru lagi kan.. tapi kalu dah mengalami peristiwa macam ni, rasa macam lambat sgt masa.. aku tak sabar nak sampai ke masa bila aku dpt baby lagi. Mesti suami aku happy sgt.. Aku teringin sgt nak buat suami aku happy.. aku tau dia terlalu ingin jadi abah.. Sabar ye sayang..

Emm...apa2 pun Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin. Buat kawan2 yang dah ada baby.. sujudlah bersyukur pada Allah sesungguhnya Allah telah memberi nikmat yang amat besar pada korang.

Friday, October 21, 2005

Epilog buka puasa kat opis

Hmm...cemana ek nak buat Blog nie lagi comel.. tak reti lah aku.. maklumla aku nie student account bukannye IT (alasan semata) :D

Akhir-akhir nie terasa sgt sedih.. sekarang nie kawan-kawan ajak berbuka puasa ramai-ramai.. aku sebenarnye teringin nak pergi..almaklumla..dah lama tak jumpa kawan lama.. tapi bile mengenangkan hampir semua kawan-kawan dah ada anak... ada yang mengandung sama dgn aku dulu.. baby dah 5-6 bulan.. comel2 semua.. membuat kan aku tak sanggup nak pergi.. bukan tak tumpang gembira bagi pihak kawan, cumanya tak tertahan rasa hati tgk mama2 lain dpt jaga baby dia kat dunia, mama amni tak dpt.. tak tertahan memikirkan betapa seronoknye diaorg peluk cium baby masing2.. sedangkan hati tak tertanggung rindu nak peluk cium baby amni.

Rinduunya nak peluk baby amni, nak cium baby amni... Kadang-kadang rasa tertekan sgt sbb tak mengandung lagi... tapi mana boleh camtu kan.. kalau nak mengandung, tak boleh la tertekan!! Igt tu fariza!

Ishk..time2 tunggu nak bukak pose nie la rase jiwang sikit.. rasa sayu je.. dah di penghujung ramadhan pun kita... takut tak sempat nak berdo puas2 minta dikurniakan anak soleh lagi.. :)

Semoga Ramadhan kali ini memberikan berita gembira buat kami... sama seperti Ramadhan tahun lepas. ameen.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Ramadhan

It is already Ramadhan... and wow, it has been NINE days since it started. So.. how many nights have you been doing qiamullail? how many juzuk alquran have you finished? how sure are you that your puasa are accepted? Frankly, i think nowadays time flies, meaning to say, we would all be dead soon enough. Are we ready to leave this world and face Allah? Are we ready to live alone in liang kubur yang gelap gelita and sempit sehingga bersilang tulang rusuk kita?

When i though of dying, the first thing that came accross my mind is what i will be leaving in this world.. my beloved husband, my family.. how will they be when i'm gone.. are they sad? will my husband marry again???? will my mother be devastated? etc..etc..

However... i am trying to remind my self that those things won't be relevent anymore to me if i'm dead. I should be thinking of how i'm going to face mungkar and nakir.. how am i going to cross titian Sirah? how will Allah accept me? Will he be mad at me? from which hand will i receive my Book of deeds? How in the world will i be able to survive Padang Masyar..dimana matahari ibarat sejengkal dari kepala... (sekarang nie kalau panas terik pun nak byk komplen!)

Hmm... Bila terfikir seme nie.. rase kecciikkk sgt diri... rasa malu nak berharap syurga dari Allah dgn ibadat yang tak seberapa.. not to mention tak khusyuk, tak sempurna...etc..

Well, may we get the best of Ramadhan always. And to remind myself and all, hidup ini bukan sekadar kat dunia sahaja.. yang akhirat tu jauh lagi penting...yang akhirat tu la yang kekal abadi.

Wallahualam.

p/s: i've read a very interesting book, the book mentioned " apabila seseorang itu meninggal, dia tidak mati seperti yang rata-rata kita anggap. Mereka sekadar pergi meninggalkan alam dunia, ke alam kubur. Roh mereka yang kita kenal didunia, masih hidup, cuma di alam yang berbeza dgn kita. "

*baby mama dah proceed dulu ke alam kubur dulu, alam yang pastinya nanti mama n abah akan datang juga. Semoga Allah menemukan kami kembali dgn baby Amni kami.. amen.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Istiqomah

Today, i would like to talk about Istiqamah. What is istiqamah? The direct translation of Istiqamah is preseverance, berterusan, tak putus-putus, tanpa mengalah.

And of course the most important thing that we need to Istiqamah is Beriman pada Allah, pada yang Hak. And, quoting from current scenarios, life scenarios, there are a lot of things that we istiqamah, whether we realize it or not. We istiqamah to always love our family regardless of their mistakes, istiqamah in trying to come to work everyday regardless of how lazy we felt, istiqamah in trying to complete our prayer -5 times/day regardless of how busy we are, istiqamah in maintaining our ideal health regardless of how tempting oily, fat-full foods are etc..etc..

We have been doing istiqamah since forever.. So why is it so hard to Istiqamah in our iman? Why does people always associate maintaining faith is hard work. Ok, picture this, it is your Husband's birthday, and you plan to give him a surprise party, and buy him a gift that you know he always, always wanted. Can you imagine what is your feeling while trying to put the surprise party together? isn't exciting? you couldn't wait to see the look on his face when he opens up his gift, just thinking about it makes you smile, makes your adrenalin rush.. makes you want the celebration day to come faster. You would sit down and look at his gift that u've bought, thinking how happy he would be and it does make you feel happy too, isn't?

Same goes for our Iman, the day will definitely come when we will be judge in front of our most Beloved Allah, shouldn't we do something so that we will makes Allah happy? Shouldn't we give our best to see Him welcome us with open arms? Isn't exciting to think of the day that you will finally meet Allah the Almighty? Don't we want to give him the present he Always wanted - untuk hambaNya menyembahnya, mengagungkanNya, meminta hanya padaNya, berharap hanya denganNya... plus we have nothing to loose but everything to gain. It is a one way profitable business deals and the profit goes to us!

Now, think again, is it that hard? or is it just exciting?

*This is solely my personal view and thinking. You are welcome to comment. Tq

Monday, July 18, 2005

Rindu

Rindu? Macam mana nak describe perasaan rindu ni.. tak dapat nak diukur betapa dalamnya rindu, betapa berat menanggung rindu. Siapa yang pernah rasa rindu, dia shj yang tahu macam mana rasanya. Dan macam mana nak buat sekiranya rindu-rindu tu tak dapat nak dipuaskan, tak dpt nak di lepaskan pada yang dirindui... buleh tension di buatnya kan?

I'm trying my best to channel this rindu feeling, this rindu power, this rindu energy into doing something that can become my ticket to relieve this rindu, to actually express the rindu kepada yang dirindui.

But sometimes, the feeling is so overwhelmed that i just cannot do anything but to sit down and cry. It has been exactly 3 months and 10 days sayang and mama rindu sgt baby mama.

Semoga Allah permudahkan kami utk mendapat Amni lagi. Ameen.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Unsatisfied with your life?

Have it ever occured to you that your life isn't going the way you imagine it would be at your current age?

Have you ever envied your friends that you think have accomplished more in life than you are?

Have you ever look at someone's fotopages and think, why isn't i who is doing that or been there? Why isn't i whose enjoying those things?

Or perhaps when you are looking at a very old, distant friend who already own a nice house and have a very good car, you are thinking what have they done to achieve that? Why am i so unsuccesful??!

Well.. i know i have thought of those kind of questions, i know i have envied some of my friend's success. And when i did, i feel very low of myself, i feel very unmotivated, very low self esteem.

It's time to pick up yourself and look around you! Allah has given you a lot of Nikmat already, You are still alive today aren't you? You still have a place to sleep at night aren't you? You still can freely move your body aren't you? You still can breath easily aren't you? etc..etc..

Despite of what we think we might be lacking of, i sincerely believe there are thousands of things that we can and should be thankful of. Living in Malaysia, born with Islam, born with perfect 5 senses, having a job, having our mind, having our faith, having our hope..

Eventhough some people we think are lucky or perhaps more successful than us in this world, we should always remind ourself to look at the big picture - AKHIRAT. It is akhirat that really matters, what we did today, or what we gather in this world should always because we want to be successfull at akhirat. This should be our main goal. This should be our ultimate goal.

So, don't feel down if we can't buy big houses now, or drive mercedes now, or have a lot of money now, because what really matter is to secure a house in Syurga, to have our ride to Syurga, to earn Allah's love and Rahmat. That is what matters the most.


* Thanks to my beloved husband who always reminded me of this. May we bacome one of those people under Allah's guidance and blessing. Ameen.*

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Bertudung Dlm Rumah?

A friend of mine came to me and asked whether i wear tudung in my own house in the presence of my in-laws...

In laws, cousins, other relatives (2 pupu,3 pupu etc..etc.) may be very close to us, we might even regards them as our own family members, like a brothers or sisters to us..

However, pls bear in mind, rules are rules..Cousins are not Muhrim, same goes to in laws. No matter how close we might be with them, remember to mind our aurah, do not shake hands without alas...

"Mahram ini berasal dari kalangan wanita, yaitu orang-orang yang haram dinikahi oleh seorang lelaki selamanya (tanpa batas). (Di sisi lain lelaki ini) boleh melakukan safar (perjalanan) bersamanya, boleh berboncengan dengannya, boleh melihat wajahnya, tangannya, boleh berjabat tangan dengannya dan seterusnya dari hukum-hukum mahram.
Mahram sendiri terbagi menjadi tiga kelompok, yakni mahram karena nasab (keturunan), mahram karena penyusuan, dan mahram mushaharah (kekeluargaan kerena pernikahan)."

Kelompok pertama, yakni mahram karena keturunan, ada tujuh golongan:
1. Ibu, nenek dan seterusnya ke atas baik dari jalur laki-laki maupun wanita
2. Anak perempuan (putri), cucu perempuan dan seterusnya ke bawah baik dari jalur laki-laki maupun wanita
3. Saudara perempuan sekandung, seayah atau seibu
4. Saudara perempuan bapak (bibi), saudara perempuan kakek (bibi orang tua) dan seterusnya ke atas baik sekandung, seayah atau seibu
5. Saudara perempuan ibu (bibi), saudara perempuan nenek (bibi orang tua) dan seterusnya ke atas baik sekandung, seayah atau seibu
6. Putri saudara perempuan (keponakan) sekandung, seayah atau seibu, cucu perempuannya dan seterusnya ke bawah baik dari jalur laki-laki maupun wanita
7. Putri saudara laki-laki sekandung, seayah atau seibu (keponakan), cucu perempuannya dan seterusnya ke bawah baik dari jalur laki-laki maupun wanita

Adapun kelompok ketiga, jumlahnya 4 golongan, sebagai berikut:
1. Istri bapak (ibu tiri), istri kakek dan seterusnya ke atas berdasarkan surat An-Nisa ayat 23.
2. Istri anak, istri cucu dan seterusnya ke bawah berdasarkan An-Nisa: 23.
3. Ibu mertua, ibunya dan seterusnya ke atas berdasarkan An-Nisa: 23.
4. Anak perempuan istri dari suami lain (rabibah) , cucu perempuan istri baik dari keturunan rabibah maupun dari keturunan rabib, dan seterusnya ke bawah berdasarkan An-Nisa: 23.

Dipetik dari http://mifty-away.tripod.com/id60.html

Monday, June 13, 2005

GAMAT PROF HASSAN

Assalamualaikum wbt,

I've been trying to find a way on how to make some side income- need downpayment to buy a dream house..:D

And i've thought of this Produk Gamat by Prof Hasan. I've been taking Gamat supplement for sometime now and i do like it, i love it's Rub (miyak panas mcm Vicks) and it's Jeli gamat is also good for external use.

So now, i'm extending to you guys the information of Prof Hasan Gamat. And the best part is, YOU CAN ORDER FROM ME, AND I'LL DELIVER IT TO YOU... by hand for Telekom Wisma n Menara n Desaminium or delivery by post.

U guys can refer to this website for infos on Prof hasan Gamat Produk.

www.healwell.com.my

Thursday, June 09, 2005


Nur Amni Izzati & Nur Amni Izzah

Baby Mama...

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Dari sebelum ada boifren, smpai dah ada boifren and sampailah kahwin, aku teringin sgt nak ada anak... Teringin nak dipanggil mama, teringin nak jadi org yang dicari bila dia nak susu or nak comfort dia bila dia jatuh, teringin nak didik dia jadi anak solehah, teringin... teringin sgt..

Setelah more than 8 months of praying, hoping and trying, aku disahkan pregnant.. bahagianya, bersyukur pada Allah.. dan Allah tambahkan nikmat pada kami 5 minggu slps tu dgn kehadiran 2 degupan jantung... aku disahkan pregnant kembar... :)

Tiap-tiap hari aku bercakap dgn baby, tiap2 hari bila mengaji, aku explain kat baby, kenapa kita kena mengaji, kadang2 aku baca terjemahan pada baby, and bila dah 5 bulan lebih, dia start respon, bila azan, dia bergerak, bila aku ckp dgn dia, dia bergerak, bila nak tido dia takkan berhenti bergerak sampai aku dodoikan dgn "Subhanallah Walhamdulillah Walailahaillah Wallahuakbar".. then baru la dia tido.. Anak mama pandai sgt..

6 Bulan 8 hari, aku start contraction sikit, then turun darah.. 2 hari selepas tu, 5 April 2005 lahirlah baby mama Nur Amni Izzah & Nur Amni Izzati. Dua-dua nama anak mama bermaksud "Cahaya Ketenanganku, Kekuatanku & kemuliaanku". Sesuai dgn namanya, kami bahagia sgt, tenang tgk anak2 kami, and baby mama kuat sgt, pandai, dah menangis, bukak mata tgk mama n abah, dah boleh pegang jari mama n abah...

Tapi sesungguhnya Allah lebih sayangkan baby mama, Allah bagi pinjam kat mama n abah 3 hari je... anak mama pergi dulu.. Nur Amni izzati yang pergi dulu, Khamis, 7 April 2005, jam 6.35 ptg, Amni Izzati tunggu sampai abah dia habis baca yassin utk dia..

Keesokan harinya, Jumaat, 8 April 2005, jam 12.00 tgh hari, Amni Izzah pergi... juga betul-betul selepas abah dia selesai baca yassin utknya..

Baby yang tiada dosa... jenazah anak-anak mama harum sgt...bau segar yang amat... dan baby mama nampak macam tido aje...

Walaupun hanya 3 hari kita bersama sayang, mama sepenuh hati sayangkan anak2 mama, mama bersyukur sgt diberi peluang berjumpa dgn anak2 mama didunia nie... takpe ye sayang... Nanti insyaAllah kita jumpa kat sana... sekarang nie, mama ngan abah kena berusaha keras, usaha utk ke syurga.. utk berjumpa amni sayang..

Al- Fatihah utk baby amni...

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim...

Alhamdulillah... it has been a while since i'm thinking of creating my own Blog - thinking can i really commit to this or not.

After browsing lots of Blog and benefiting from wonderful articles, comments, looking at the world from many point of view... i realize that perhaps it is time for me to share, to contribute something as a guidance to myself and those who can benefit from what i'm learning along the way in my quest of life....