Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I miss my Amni

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Last night i miss my Amni so much. Actually yesterday we decided on this coming baby's name... NUR AMNI NADRAH. After deciding the name, it hit me that we are going to have another Amni in the family, skarang nie, kalau ckp pasal Amni je, we are referring to our beloved, solehah twins.. but now, there's going to be another Amni in the family.

I am afraid of the thought that we might eventually forgot about our beautiful twins.. Our Nur Amni Izzah & Nur Amni Izzati. It has been nearly 4 years since their passing. I do admits that i have forgetten some of the little details, despite trying as hard as i can, i can't remember actually how they smells, but i know jenazah Amni berbau harum sgt... but i just can remember exactly macam mana baunya. I can't remember the feeling Amni's kicking my belly during my pregnancy, i can't remember how their skin felt when Amni Izzah tries to hold my finger... and so on..

The image is still there, but sometimes it gets very vague... and i am afraid that i might forget. I dont want to forget, i refuse to forget. I have a twin baby, eventhough it was only for 3 days, but they are our babies, dunia and akhirat.

Ya Allah, mudah2an terpelihara ingatan kami terhadap Amni dan mudah2an kami dapat bertemu kembali dengan Amni-amni kami di akhirat nanti..InsyaAllah. Ameen.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

InsyaAllah sayang, kita berusaha dan terus berdoa agar sentiasa ingat dan merindui Nur Amni Izzah dan Nur Amni Izzati kita tu, sampai akhir hayat.

Walaupun cuma sekejap dengan kita kat dunia ni, tapi baby amni kita tu tetap jugak anak-anak kita, dunia dan akhirat. Nobody can take that away from us.

Al-Fatihah

Anonymous said...

Yang...you made me damn sad...
Tak pasal aku nangis sesorang kat opis malam ni...
then aku pun teringat sangat my lil baby, siti aisyah...
kalau diaorang ada mesti dah besarkan?
But i always remember what you told me before...selalu berdoa..insyaAllah kita akan jumpa dia di syurga...and i really miss her...